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September 06, 2005
A Comedy of Stuff Breaking and Me Drugged Up
So before I went to California, I fixed my air conditioning so I could take everyone down to the Bay Area comfortably. Well, the day I got there, the car was overheating like mad. And the next day, the a/c compressor finally seized up, and now my car goes "kachink kachink kachink" all the time. To make matters worse, the battery (which I just replaced) isn't keeping a charge, so there must be something wrong with the alternator or related items. And last night I must have driven over something, or maybe lost the nail that was in my tire, because it went completely flat. Unfortunately, due to the low-profile nature of my tires, I had no idea whatsoever. I was driving around on a flat tire, and I tore up my sidewall. Now the tire won't take any air, so I need to put the spare on. I don't think the tire place will fix it, because it's really worn down from the flat. Plus the tires are pretty bald anyway.
Our car is our only form of transportation. I was planning on buying at least one other car by now, but I STILL don't have a job, which is really frustrating, on top of all the frustration.
Thursday, I finally went to the doctor, and I said I was SOOOOO stressed out and I wasn't sleeping, and this is just more stuff on top of this. I try to stuff my feelings, so I don't let stuff out, I just let it build up until I go crazy. So he gave me some anxiety medicine, which I took on Friday morning. I found it doesn't so much remove anxiety as just drug you up to the point that you don't really care about anything at all. I mean, I was REALLY REALLY drugged up the entire time. I was all saying things crazy and just totally out of it. At some point I said Serena's husband and I should get naked and go in the sauna together. I mean, that is kind of funny, but I probably wouldn't have said that if I wasn't under the influence.
Jennifer also has been giving me a sleep aid. The other day she gave me two, and I went to sleep at 2am, and I woke up a couple times, then went back to sleep, and finally I got up at 11PM. I was awake for a few more hours, and then went back to sleep.
On top of that, the past couple days I've been sick... sore throat and awful headache. I'm very tired all the time. I don't have the energy to go out and put on the spare tire. The house is an absolute pigsty, and I don't have the energy to clean anything. It's truly awful. I feel like going and lying down again, but I'm going to go to the store and eat something first. I'm all stressed out again, and what I really want is a nice steak or something. But the kitchen is disgusting and I don't have the money for it anyway. Ah, life is truly a joy right now. You gotta laugh at it, I suppose.
Posted by March at September 6, 2005 05:32 PM